One of your problems, Dex, is that your life is too internal, too examined. You're forever beating yourself over the way events in your past have wound up shaping your present. You're also too obsessed with the immediate future, to use your words, you're always too busy number-crunching it. So you have things to do, loose ends to tie up-- do them and damn the consequences 'cause you're always walking between a rock and a hard place. You don't need anyone to hold your hand while you're at it too. Try living, really living. You know the benefits 'cause you've done it before.